1. At some point between my 11th and 13th years on this planet, a global equator of sorts was passed: globally, the population that was literate passed the 50 percent point. This was one of the great events of the 1960s, although at the time it was not celebrated with jubilees and fireworks. Rather it was simply a plodding little point on a graph.
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“I’m so bored. I hate my life.” - Britney Spears
Das Langweilige ist interessant geworden, weil das Interessante angefangen hat langweilig zu werden. – Thomas Mann
"Never for money/always for love" - The Talking Heads
Tuesday, May 19, 2026
Spending my life reading
Saturday, May 16, 2026
UGLY STORIES
“A party of us were together one day – we’d been drinking, it’s true – and suddenly some one made the suggestion that each one of us, without leaving the table, should tell something he had done, something that he himself honestly considered the worst of all the evil actions of his life. But it was to be done honestly, that was the point, that it was to be honest, no lying.” – The Idiot
Dostoevsky is perhaps the greatest artist of the ugly story, the shameless and shameful anecdote. There are so many of them in his novels, and of course, Notes from Under the Floorboards is one big ugly story. It is obvious that Dostoevsky himself considers that he picked up the genre from the French. One usually thinks of Rousseau’s Confessions. Perhaps that is literally the source of the ‘game”, but, in broader historic terms, Rousseau’s Confessions emerge from a whole sub-genre of ugly stories. I could, perhaps, trace the psychology of these stories to the moralistes. But then I’d be here all fucking day, right? Rameau is, if nothing else, a fount of ugly stories. Of which, let me transcribe one.
The story is funny, in a way. And the bones of it are definitely La Rochefoucauld. It is not about the nephew of Rameau himself, but – like many stories – the telling of it sticks in a peculiar way to both the teller and the hearer - it creates a secret bond, the kind of bond that is pointed to, negatively, by the phrase, "I don't want to hear this." To hear is to have, to be entrusted with, to share and have a share in. In The Idiot, when Ferdyshtchenko suggests the game at Nastasya Fillipovna’s birthday party, the intent is a general degradation of all present, and for reasons intrinsic to that moment, it is what Nastasya needs to break out of the situation she finds herself in. But here is the thing - it is a degradation within the bounds of a game. It is the guise of the game that makes it acceptable, or makes it acceptable, at least, to suggest it. As a game, of course, it isn’t serious. But like the best games – like Russian Roulette – its non-seriousness penetrates what is serious, making the serious look shabby and shallow and suspect. This is the game like, a ritual aspect to the dialogue between Diderot and the nephew of Rameau. There is something about this one of Diderot’s works that gives it a certain clandestine feel. It wasn’t published in his lifetime. In fact, it first appeared in a German translation many years after his death. It was read with interest by Hegel, and referenced in the Phenomenology of Spirit, that great prose poem.
This is the story. It is about one Bouret. Fermier général Etienne-Michel Bouret – a tax gatherer. A man whose wealth allowed him to hope for social advancement in the complicated court circles of Louis XV. But there is a price to pay for not being born in the right class, there is always the price of birth. There is now, don’t kid yourself. Classless society my ass. Bouret, then, determines to win the affection of the keeper of Seals. This is a story that, with variations, could be applied to the Georgetown circles in D.C. at the moment, or – actually, to corporate achievers, going through the ranks, in any Fortune 400 corporate office, in any tech company. The tv series Silicon Valley dramatized any number of ugly stories, following in the recently popular vein of “cringe comedy” – cringe being the American variant of the ugly story, ameliorating existential shame into entertaining social embarrassment.
I’m going to quote from the Penguin translation, as I don’t feel up to translating the whole bit at the moment. But I will make a few modifications:
Lui [Rameau’s nephew]: “But if this role is amusing at
first, and you find a certain amount of pleasure in laughing up your sleeve at
the stupidity of the people you are hoodwinking, it ends up by losing its
point, and besides, after a certain number of inventions you are forced to
repeat yourself. Ingenuity and art have their limits. Only God and one or two
rare geniuses can have a career that broadens out as they go along. Bouret is
one such, perhaps. Some of his tricks really strike me, yes, even me, as
sublime. The little dog, the Book of Happiness, the torches along the
Versailles road, these are things which leave me dumbfounded and humiliated.
Enough to put you off the profession.
I: What do you mean about the little dog?
He: [What planet are you from]? What, you don’t really know how that rare man
set about [scaring a little dog away from himself and attaching it to the
Keeper of the Seals, who had taken a fancy to it?]
I: No, I confess I don’t.
He: All the better. It is one of the finest things ever conceived; the whole of
Europe was thrilled by it, and there isn’t a single courtier it hasn’t made
envious. You are not without sagacity: let’s see how you would have set about
it. Remember that Bouret was loved by his dog. Bear in mind that the strange
attire of the Minister terrified the little creature. Think that he only had
one week to overcome the difficulties. You must understand all the conditions
of the problem so as to appreciate the merits of the solution. Well!
I: Well, I have to admit that in that line the simplest things would catch me
out.
He: Listen (he said, giving me a little tap on the shoulder), listen and
admire! He had a mask made like the face of the Keeper of the Seals, he
borrowed the latter’s ample robe from a footman. He put the mask over his own
face. He slipped on the robe. He called the dog, caressed it and gave it a
biscuit. Then, suddenly changing his attire, he was no longer the Keeper of the
Seals but Bouret, and he called his dog and whipped it. In less than two or
three days of this routine, carried on from morning till night, the dog learned
to run away from Bouret the Farmer-General and run up to Bouret the Keeper of
the Seals. But I am too good natured. You are a layman and don’t deserve to be
told about the miracles going on under your very nose.”
There are so many beautiful bits here . For instance, the way the problem of
brownnosing, of true self-degradation, is laid out like a chess problem, just
like the chess games going on around Diderot and the nephew at the Palais
Royale, where the dialogue is taking place. And the admiration demanded for
something abject, something inhuman, something truly, in every way, shitty. To
be willing to go to such lengths of humiliation in order to curry favor – the
history of those humiliations will, of course, rise up again, ghosts that will
torment the perpetrator. One can only assuage one’s own wounded pride by such
success that one can enjoy the abasement of others – that endless chain. While
much is said about masculine aggression contributing to that curious eagerness
for war, there is also the revenge for the thousand humiliations that have to
be crossed in order to get to be fermier general, or undersecretary of
Intelligence in the Department of Defense, or any member of Trump’s cabinet –
and that mass accumulation of humiliations among a group that considers itself
the most powerful, the most deserving, the most masculine grouping in history –
ah, those are the boys to order the next bombing, to kill fishermen and schoolage
girls by merely flexing! The violence in this group is never pure, it is always
muddied by obscure memories of toadying, the ingrown rancour of overgrown bullies.
In another century, Bouret is Dr. Oz, Bouret is the gay evangelical preacher
who gets the 100 percent heterosexual grade at evangelical redemption camp.
Giving up the little doggie just for just a little taste of the highest level
of cocaine - fame, power, acceptance by the guys who count. Being made. Ah, the
bliss of it, the entire bliss.
Only, only the ugly story really captures that. The
contribution of story to human reality is something we underestimate at our
peril.
Wednesday, May 13, 2026
The "I am" and the 'Happen to be" - a cultural semantics
Culture shows its hand molecular bits and bytes, the way the
Id shows itself in dreams, a self-directed movie starring IT itself. Look for
the conjunctions, look for the negations, the excuses, the condensations.
Look for, for instance at “happens to be”.
“Happens to be” is all around us. I was reading a book about
an artist the other day, and I came across the phrase: “A painting by a young
artist, who happens to be African American and gay…” Happens, here, sends us
back to chance itself. He could “happen to be” unhyphenated American and
straight, couldn’t he? In which case he would, presumably, not happen to be at
all, but would be. There he’d be, an “I am”, pure as Jehovah in the burning
bush. Our pre-birth identities wait, like slips of paper in a box, to be
selected blindly. Like, say, the slips of paper in the box in Shirley Jackson’s
“The Lottery.” Somebody has to be stoned. Those are the rules of the routine.
But who, that is the variable. That is what is written on the slip. Who will “happen
to be”?
Such, as our tongue knows, is the lightly exerted pressure
on that “happens to be.” It looks like an ontological statement of fact, and it
sounds like an apologetic.
Trust the sound.
“Happens to be” joins together the otherwise sociologically
separate strands of neo-liberalism: on the one hand, the lessons of the civil
rights era – non-discrimination/diversity; and on the other hand, the master of
hap, Fortuna and her wheel, the free market with its invisible hand up your
rectum, jumping the puppets, who all say “I am”. Not, mind you, the government
– the era of big government is always over, in neo-liberal culture, even if it
exerts itself muscularly now and then to save the big banks and the one percent
and becomes wildly aggressive and polices the world, all of course in the name
of Freedom. In what other name can you reduce schools and hospitals to rubble?
The leftist critique of neo-liberalism can’t be simply, as
it was under classical liberalism, that it is all a class act – with Capital v.
Labor as the fighters in the ring. Because the spectrum of injustices and
differences are not engrossed by Capital v. Labor. That lesson of the civil
rights (and de-colonial) era has to ring in our ears, if that is one “happens
to be” a leftist.
“Happens to be” is an overdetermined phrase. It is
apologetic in that odd way in which one apologizes to a bigot for his or her
bigotry. “I happen to be x” – Jewish, black, trans-sexual, whatever – is a way
to deflect a certain meanness, a certain threat in the conversation, with one’s
counterpart who is, for instance, talking trash about Jews, blacks, gays, or
whatever. In this conversation, the “I am” is always on the side of insisting. “The
Great I am” – this is what Sam Pollitt’s wife, Henny, calls her American New Dealer husband,
Sam, that bully and humanitarian. It
happens that you, my counterpart – my comrade, my brother or sister – are
standing here with an x. A “happen to be” x. An all natural x.
“Happens to be” was forced aboard the slave ships, and driven
out of the territories. “I am” built the log cabin, the Georgian mansion (now available
for weddings) and, if it didn’t build the railroads, profited mightily from
railroad stock. The “I am” earns his billions – the “Happens to be” is the parasite
on welfare who also happens to have physically built the railroads, clerked at
the convenience store, flipped the burgers, nursed the patient, and all that
low grade stuff they do.
Truly, from the “I am’s point of view, what is more natural
than chance? The happens to be should be happy that they are allowed even to
be. And chance is what provides us with
our “diversity” – we can’t all be white straight men, cause somebody has to
clean the toilets, am I right? And yet, when we tease out this “happens to be”,
we begin to wonder why the heteronormative hick never happens to be – he just
is. Does anybody ever say, I happen to be white? Does our egg, our Humpty
Dumpty, our man whose words mean what he wants them to mean, ever happen to be?
This is just a little flicker in the national, in the
international conversation between the ’I am’ and the ‘happen to be’.
Neo-liberal culture is so obviously exhausted, is so obviously tied in knots by
its own self-contradictions, that one thinks surely it is at an end. It isn’t,
though. Happens to be still creeps through our conversations, our second
thoughts, our apologies. The way we confront, and the way, at the last moment,
we deflect. Happens to be is the deeper character, the more sophisticated
character, the rascal and the sage, but the political advantage seems to be all
with the I am.
And yet: who among us, in the end, wants to be the I am? The great loud I am. As the glaciers go down and hedonics turns out to measure unhappiness, after all.
The great depression, my friends, my dearest friends, has been internalized. We are left to drift.
Monday, May 11, 2026
A Modest Proposal: Let AI replace CEOs!
The Dumb New Yorker post - Will AI Replace College or some dumbfuck thing, I'm refusing to check - is another in the media corps cult of AI. Lets face it, AI is a minor tool for lab work and heavy industry, and it isn't going to "replace College."
The bosses are heavy invested in tech, and if the stock crumbles, they crack and crumble next.
So...
Friday, May 08, 2026
A translation of Pierre Herbart's story Miraflores
“Herbart has made his life into a blank sheet, but it has taken everything
he had. He will die seated in front of his blank sheet.” Indeed, according to
Jean-Luc Moreau, from which I take this quote about Pierre Herbart, he did die
a pauper, and a sick man as well. So poor he was buried in a common grave. Not
the ending one would have predicted for a man who was Gide’s secretary in the
1930s, an editor of a famous communist magazine in Moscow for a time, an
agitator in the colony of Vietnam, a soldier in the Spanish Civil War, and a
resistor in occupied France.
He’s not well known. I came across this story from the late
twenties, when Marxism was becoming Sur-marxism, and I thought that it was a
rather wonderful enigma. A tale torn from a dream. So I translated it.
Miriflores
One evening in a little
village in Hungary I witness a strange show put on by a showman with a donkey
in the village square. He beat a drum. I easily recognized in this scene one of
the images in Madame de Segur’s “Memoires of a donkey”, which showed Miriflore,
the intelligent ass, his master and the latter’s family. I couldn’t be
mistaken. The son had exactly the stupid air that Madame de Segur lent to our
village obscurities. The little slattern girls were clothed in hoop skirts and
the boys wore baggy pants and close fitting shirts The papas and mamas were walking
up and down, ignoring the donkey man, and Cadichan – Segur’s donkey – absorbed the
whole thing through its evil eyes. I wasn’t too surprised, as I expected some
show of this kind this evening.. I following the doing with a certain
curiosity, then retired back to my room in the inn, although not without a
certain trepidation brought on by my reading the news of an innkeeper who had
recently been arrested for killing foreign tourists in order to make a paté
much appreciated by his customers. Nevertheless, I fell asleep, only to wake
myself up in the middle of the night murmuring: “I’m in Hungary.” Upon which I
became sad. What to do? I decided that the next day I would find the donkey man
and attach myself to his destiny. “He would certainly let me if I gave him a
little money”, I thought. “And besides, I can do a few card tricks to follow
the end of his routine.” This project returned to my mind when the servant brought
me my cup of coffee in the morning. I decided not to argue with it. In the
dining room I asked for the innkeeper and then asked him how I could find the
place where I could meet up with the donkey man.
- What donkey man? The man
asked.
- The one who was there
yesterday. In the square.
The innkeeper took a long look
at me and , without replying, went across the room to consult with his wife.
Sometimes he glanced over at me and I understood that he had decided I was
crazy. That could be dangerous. Thus I decided to get out of there with a
feigned indifference. I haled a passing carriage.
- I will give you a one
hundred franc tip if you get me to Cassal in half an hour.
The horses raced like the
wind. We passed the last house in the village when a man came out of the stable
and took off in pursuit of us. I recognized the donkey man. He ran as fast as
he could, signalling to us. I watched him from a little porthole cut into the
roof of the cart. He was manifestly losing ground. At a road crossing he went
down the wrong path and continued running in the opposite direction. I was
saved.
The coachman turned to me. “We never show that we see him”, he said.
Wednesday, May 06, 2026
The door of the past
In an essay on Henry James’s autobiographies, Richard Poirier claimed that the first volume – A small boy and others – which is ostensibly a memoir of William James, who had recently died – deserves a place among the two other great books about the boyhood of artists that appeared in the 1910s: Proust’s Du côté de chez Swann and Joyce’s A portrait of an artist as a young man. Perhaps we should include Freud’s Aus Der Geschichte einer infantilen Neurose from 1918 in this company.
Friday, May 01, 2026
On Movies
When Edison, among others, invented the apparatus for making film, everybody – in the West - had a pretty good idea of what an actor did and what theatre was. These ideas were passed onto film, as if film were merely the extension of theatre. It did not occur to Edison, or to others in the first period of moviemaking, to do more than let the camera record a basically theatrical experience. It was as if one were just taking a big extended photograph of a play.
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